Since I can remember my life has been a series of deliveries of lemons. Particularly my adult life, I have always been a silver lining kinda gal and so I did as I always have done, when life sent its frequent deliveries of lemons, I made lemonade to ensure life at least felt sweeter than the reality I was living.
Now something has happened that has thrown me for a loop. Life appeared to be sending me lemons once again at the end of last year but instead of me making the lemonade and trying to work towards a happier life I sat back, relaxed and trusted. This isn’t an easy thing for me to do. I have a deep felt need to be in control of all aspects of my life. For example I hate other people driving whilst I’m a passenger I need the accelerator and the brakes please, not that I don’t trust you but I trust me more.
As I sat back, relaxed and trusted my life began to flow again. I rediscovered the love of my family who I moved away from 26 years ago. I realised how much I had missed them and recognised all the amazing qualities they possess that wow me everyday. I managed to get back in touch with old school and college friends who were friends because we made each other laugh, held each other when we cried and we friends for friends sake not because we could advance each other’s careers or fulfil any other function than just being together.
Now these things were a bonus they made relaxing and going with the flow seem worth it, but the thing that has really thrown me for a loop is meeting someone who at first glance looked as if we would just be good friends. We could make each other laugh, we had so much history in common it seemed funnier than the jokes we shared. Our paths have crossed so much in the past 45 years it almost seemed like the Universe was playing a game seeing if we could spot one another before It instigated our meeting.
I am a big believer in soul mates, but I have never been a believer that I needed someone to complete me or that I have a missing part that needs to be filled by someone else. I have always believed that soul mates should make you better by inspiring you and supporting you, as you do for them. They are an amazing addition to the whole you that makes you shine, makes your heart sing and makes you see why all the lemons delivered so far have been there to pave the way to how life is supposed to be.
I am so grateful for the loop I have been sent. He is what people call a “Good Man” but that does not even come close to describing him. He is an Amazing Man, a Generous Man and someone I feel so at peace with everyday feels bright and full of possibilities. So Universe Thank You for all the lemons, Thank You for all my lessons, and Thank You for my Amazing Man I love getting to smile everyday and that I am sharing my life with him.